Looking back, I had so much ego going into the race. I can even be heard saying to Margaret that I “hoped it was 15 miles per loop”.
On the outside, I was saying that I respected the mountain, its terrain, and the distance. Clearly, I did not.
Clearly, I did not train even close to hard enough of what it takes to be an Ultra Beast Finisher. I thought because I had done a few 20 mile trail run/hikes up a local mountain that I was going to be prepared. I thought because I had enough food, gear, and warm clothing that I was prepared.
I was not prepared to hike at a fast pace, I was not prepared to do 200 burpees and what that would take out of me, I was not prepared to push myself for the 4-5 hours straight per loop it would have taken to be an Ultra Beast Finisher.
I also was not prepared emotionally for what the down side to not finishing would be. I have been useless to my family and my business for the last 2 days. I am a humbled racer. I can’t even talk about next year, it would be more ego talking. I need a few more days to figure all of this out.
I think this photo says it all for me. My wife titled it “Pensive Spartan”. The byline I put is “When one medal is not enough”